No….but having said that, “I’m happy”. I just haven’t totally arrived yet.
As I look back through my life, I can honestly say I’ve come a long way.
There are places I could have been stuck, places where I wish I never ventured and places I wish I’d had the courage to go.
This life truly is a journey and right now I’m on the path of writing. But, as I write this, I feel dried up inside with not much to write about. The words have deserted me only coming 3 or 4 at a time, as I work at this. But that’s the point, isn’t it ― according to Winston Churchill? To continue!
Maybe some of you will know the frustration I’m feeling in wanting to put something out there but the flow, the energy, is hard to find. I’ve worked on being the type of person that looks for a silver lining in circumstances and situations. I’ve had to learn that early on and it has served me well. (Oh good that was a whole sentence ― the writing is improving.)
But, as I write this, I have to chuckle at a conversation I had with my daughter last week in talking about such things. She said, “Mom, you don’t always have to put icing on poop.” Meaning I don’t always have to put a positive spin on a negative story or negative incident. Then she went on to say, “You just need to let it be what it is ― “poop” ― and sit with it.” I might also add, “Let it go”.
I know it takes work and determination, which is back to where I’m at writing a few words at a time. So, as I sit with this and continue to draw out the words, I hope it’s not “poop” and you can at least get a laugh from it, as you listen to my little rant.
I’ll get where I want to be ― it’s not that far. Yet, probably when I reach it there will be more adventures on the horizon to explore. Forgive me for continuing to add a little icing with a chuckle.
Pat from the ol’ kitchen table