I’ve been out of touch lately and haven’t written anything. While I have a legitimate reason, with giving my full attention to hubby coming off of surgery, there is more to why I haven’t posted. To be honest, I’ve been waiting for something to happen or a clue on what to do next.
A part of me knows this doesn’t work and yet another part of me is in a holding pattern knowing it’s okay with the spiritual growth I’ve been experiencing. I feel like I’m torn in two different directions ― be still and listen for guidance or beat the wind and make something happen. In the past, I’ve given my heart to different projects going out of my comfort zone. No matter how hard I tried, they never took root and died. I don’t want to do that anymore ― put my energy into something that isn’t going anywhere. I want to intuitively know I am where I’m supposed to be and doing what I’m supposed to do.
Over the last couple of days, I’ve been given a couple of nudges to start writing again. Before then, I was trying to create an idea for a topic for a story only to come up blank. I mean really blank ― nada ― nothing. The first nudge came by way of noted information on participating in a Writing Process Blog Hop from my internet friend, Susan Cooper at “Finding Our Way Now”. I almost begged off in pursuing it knowing how uninspired I’ve been lately with writing. But, I didn’t.
The second came from an old networking friend, Tom LaRotonda in a post he wrote, “Lives in the Balance” from which I began this story. I guess you could say I finally got the message to do something from his post and the song he included below. It was the added inspiration I needed to write about what I’ve been feeling lately ― unplugged.
Throughout the years, there have been many from which I’ve learned that gave me new perspectives that have changed my life. It has made me the person I am today. I’m getting better at listening, watching and feeling for when the time is right to move.
How does the commercial go, “If you want to be in action, you have to stay in action”― something like that. Only, you don’t want to be wandering around endlessly getting nowhere and without any direction. I’ve done that.
Bottom line, it’s all perfect no matter how you get there. For me, I’ve learned by taking leaps, withdrawing and staying still or from gentle nudges like those I’ve recently received. I’ve realized the things I’ve done I may have thought were failures, really weren’t. They were processes I had to exercise and explore to get to the next phase. It doesn’t come all at once, though I’d like it to, sometimes we’re only shown what to do, a little at a time, in preparation for our heart’s calling. I’d like to think that’s it, especially when I reflect on this quote from Patañjali.
When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all of your thoughts break their bonds: your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction and you find yourself in a new, great wonderful world. Dormant forces, faculties and talents become alive and you discover yourself to be a greater person than you ever dreamed yourself to be. ― Patañjali
Maybe, some of you have felt the same things I have and this will help you get jump started. I hope so. What roadblocks have you faced lately and how have you worked through it?
By the way ― Happy St. Patrick’s Day
Pat from the ol’ kitchen table